Welp
sitting here like damn
it's been so long
I can't even really remember what it was like before I just accepted things
That feels kind of like failing
and kind of comfortable at the same time
I don't really
feel like the same guy
just have the same eyes the same lies the same kinds the same same old guy
"you're just as greedy as I am"
thats what my dad told me out of a huge fight we got into about caring
about doing things for money, about living right,
and here I am just as fat as i ever been just living life
Whatever man it's all in the past
drink to forget and move on maybe a friend would say
okay whatever, remember when people used to say people were gay
and it was a put down because you were different
now things are just different.
or maybe it's me that hasn't changed
maybe it's me that has just stayed the same
the same blob of shit that just seems to lay
no more friends really just a couple chats
and some with a pair that I know
and everything i write
just feels like it's wrong
just feels like some failed song
as things around me slow
an old man that's how i feel
a fat guy that's how i feel
a racist a sexist a pessimist
out of shape and uncool
I'm just a fool
to laugh at to put your mask at
to cruel to you
im just a dude
